♥-Chɚrish Bloşsȏm

I really wish I will have the ability to control all the outcomes.
My mind is full of the uncertainties that could make me insane.
The first time I felt zero confidence on,
the more and more inputs really make me sick,
I should not key them in but too bad it's my fault again.

I really wish I could bury my mind,
so I could stop thinking everything,
but even if I stop, things still go on.
I m lacking of strength and analysis skill on this.
My skill was too weak and I could not identify the following things already.

Can I make a move according to my preference?
but I'm bound with the conditions,
I may lose everything if I bleach the terms,
yet what should I do to get win-win solution?
I'm still crazy of going for the gamble,
at least the answer will be shown in the end of day.
Just the matter whether I can accept it if it turns bad or not.